Potholes

 I encountered a serious pothole in life. It has shattered my confidence and sent me into a pit of despair. I am forced to re-evaluate who I am and go forward, re-learning the things that I love. It will take time to recover, but I should be fine again one day.

I am just going to focus on GSIV and taking it easy on myself. I am a little distraught about being on so much medication, because I find it hampers my ability to function and my overall happiness. There doesn't seem to be much I can do about that and I feel trapped.

My one friend is great as usual, but I feel I have changed. I feel I have abandoned the relationship and sullied it. There is nothing left to do but let time heal me. I am even neglecting my job.

I am fighting the urge to drink a beer. That is not really a road I want to go down. It would probably make my emotional pain ease up. Right now I'm just listening to the radio and doing GSIV.