First Post

Hi internet world,

I would first like to say that this blog will be about nothing whatsoever. It is simply the ramblings of a possibly-warped mind. At times it will be personal, and at times it will be a rant. I do intend to unleash some serious gripes.

That being said, I hope there will be an evolution of thought, a progression that will lead me into some sort of linear path that will hopefully make sense one day.  Looking back, I hope to see progress.

At the same time, this blog will give me a voice to unleash my creativity. It will be an outlet.

Lately I've been a bit disillusioned with some of the drugs I've been taking. Well, more accurately, I have been drugging myself. I believe that since I have a roof over my head, and income, it should be up to me whether or not I take drugs or, as the euphemism goes, "medication".

I am not concerned with whatever diagnosis I have. What I want is to be safe and healthy.

My friend Laura is an enormous support to me. She sees me for exactly what I am, and actually listens. Many people would simply accuse me of being "non-compliant" when I talk about stopping to drug myself. Or at least that is the shade of my mother appearing in my head.

I have noticed that my mind or ability to imagine things has been negatively impacted by these drugs. Also, my body has deteriorated in health. I am a bit worried that I am dependent on them now, but I intend to gradually ween myself off.

At first when I started living alone I was a bit apprehensive that I would have no one to talk to. Now, I am somewhat used to it. I think this blog will be some sort of way of speaking to others, so that I can get stuff off my chest. I had created a journal at first, but I am noticing that typing is much more efficient. I saw an interesting video of Elon Musk during his entrepreneur days, early on, and he was always on his computer. If he can do it, so can I!

I purchased this "netbook" off Amazon yesterday for $100. It arrived today. It was a tough decision to spend the money, but I am glad I did.