Change

 Well, I managed to get 8 hours sleep. Still not enough,

I need to catch up on more sleep. But my schedule is messed up, once again. Getting my body used to this change in Lithium will be no easy task.

Change is always disorienting. Recently, an individual entered my life in a random way, A.M., who is a complete basket case and very fluid in his life. He is constantly in motion. What he lacks is consistency.

I need stability. Stable people, a stable life.

For a long time I was frequenting a chatroom and it provided a certain amount of stability, Then, I found my friend. But somewhere along the way it got messed up.

When I entered the hospital in September I put my trust in doctors. I had convinced myself that I was crazy. That is a hard-learned lesson that I will take with me.

I think about the current environment in the world, most notably here in the West, and I wonder what exactly is happening. Honestly, I don't really care about politics but I am meeting my father today for lunch and it seems like that is all he cares about. He has wild and crazy ideas about people and politics. Maybe because he watches hours of news every day. Or maybe because he's old.

I am realizing now that I am sort of using this blog more as a journal than a blog. But then again, it is about random stuff. I don't intend on sharing this blog with anyone I know.