Gratitude

 As I sit here in this crowded food court with far, far too many people, I am reflecting on gratitude. We are not always where we want to be in life. Some things are good, some things are bad. We are usually somewhere in the middle. It's important to feel gratitude for what we do have. Generally as we age, we might be disappointed in the mistakes we made and what we could have more of. But what matters is that we have some people in our lives to hold our hands and be there for us.

I have realized that I will be devoting a lot of my time to work. It's kind of what drives me forward. Making money is good because it gives you the freedom to buy things. Lately I've been spending almost all my money on food. I like to have a nicely stalked kitchen at home.

I generally think of myself as floating around the people around me. With those younger than me, they have possibility before them. As you age, you have less possibility. Because of my experiences, I have sort of become rather bitter. I need to keep an open mind and realize that there are a lot of good things that I have, even if I'm not where I want to be in life. And I can still get more things because I still have quite some time ahead of me.

Basically there are two things that keep me going: reading and video games. I need a healthy dose of both. I have said in the past that video games are my insulin. One in particular.

Reading makes me more intelligent. However, I have realized that due to a lack of imagination, I might not be getting as much as I could be getting from my books. My friend says she gets visual images of the things she reads. And she reads for learning. I didn't bring my book with me today but I am kind of wishing I had.