I'm unsure how personal I will get in this blog, but being as I probably won't show it to anyone I know I suppose I can get relatively personal. Although, this is the internet so I probably shouldn't disclose any actual details.
Like I said in the previous post, I am titrating off two of my medications. It is going to take some patience and some grit, but it is possible, I believe.
Lately, an individual entered my life who has been a dark influence. They are a person from my past, someone who I hadn't intended on ever seeing again. They found my phone number on the internet, however, and contacted me. Ever since, I have been plagued by thoughts of this person. I blocked their number. Now, I have to worry about them showing up up in my neighbourhood.
I am truly scared of this person.
But, time should heal this up.
The medication that I am titrating down is Lithium and Trazadone. I really shouldn't have been on these two medications in the first place. But when I went into the hospital in September (I believe it was) the doctor there, mentioned both of those medications. Fool that I was, I decided to pursue his advice. Anyway, several weeks later and I was on both of those medications, Lithium and Trazadone.
Lithium fucks with your brain. That will be a hard one to come off of. It doesn't really mess you up in a bad way if you are not on too much of it. But from the little I know about it, it completely alters your brain chemistry. So slow removal will be key. The Trazadone also messes with you, but in a different way.
In any case, you could argue that I am crazy. But I would rather be slightly crazy and happy than be medicated (especially on Lithium) and miserable.
Essentially with any medication the body just gets used to it, and then it kind of stops being as effective. And also, I do not trust doctors any more.
Recently, I started a job that entails me recruiting people to come speak at certain events. It is a good job with a decent wage, but it is relatively few hours per week.
In any case, I am both excited and hopeful to get these drugs out of my life, and a little scared about removing said person from my life. I have so much more to say on the subject.
I am reading the "Arrows Trilogy" by Mercedes Lackey. It is a good story about a girl named Talia who enters a special city where Heralds and Companions watch over and protect the people. It is a fantasy tale involving interesting characters and protagonist who you really want to root for.
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