I have recently decided to try different substances. I was strictly against this behaviour for a long time, but have changed my tune slightly. The lucid clarity of total sobriety was enticing, but adjusting that pathology somewhat has made for some interesting twists and turns, as well as some pleasure here and there. I have sort of discovered that boredom makes people want to drink and use substances. I delt with my boredom in many ways before I have shifted into someone who drinks and uses other substances, but I don't really recall which lifestyle I prefer. I have the blog articles that I can go back and read as a way of probing into the past.
It seems the fate of myself, a mentally ill person, to undergo med changes from time to time. Lately I have been going through a pretty rigorous one, and I hope this will be the last for the foreseeable future. I have a new psychiatrist, which is something that I wanted because I had not had one following me for quite some time.
In any case, the goal of lithium is to provide a blood level that is therapeutic, so, this doctor is increasing this medication to get to that level. I will just say, I find that the mental repercussions of this are aggravating and alarming. I am just waiting it out until my body fully absorbs the new medication regimen and I am comfortable on the new dose. I have been working with this particular individual for several months now, and it has involved appointments and bloodwork, and taking a lot of pills at night.
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