Energy

 I believe there is energy among people. You can absorb negative energy, or benefit from the positive energy of people in your life. Human feelings are all linked together with the people around you. When I was studying, I heard it said that you are the people you hang out with. That's why I take great care to vet and select the people I spend time with. For me, I don't need a lot of people, just a few. I will say again, my feelings are flattened by the medicine (simply put, the lithium), but I'd like to get back to having a mind and creativity. I want out-of-body experiences beyond simply treating the "brain" or nervous system through drugs. I believe in imagination, in visualization, in feeling.

I got stalked and it hurt. The energy that I absorbed from A.M., who was my early childhood friend set me back, or at least returned me to the kid I was before I went on into adulthood. I have to somehow muster the energy and take it and move forward, like being revamped, into new relationships at this later stage of my life. Energy is important.