New computer

 I recently invested in a new computer. I find it fun to play different video games. Sometimes I wish I could have more fun. So far I have been playing Hearthstone, but I am downloading Counterstrike 2 as well. Before getting this computer, I had been doing a lot of reading, which was good. Recent developments have been such that my medication regime has changed drastically. I am on more and different meds than I was before.

A strange thing has happened. The earworms that have always been in my head are now more prominent, and I actually consider the constant music in my head to be somewhat of a symptom.

Being on my computer has helped avoid these musical intruders but I find their omnipresence to be more than a little annoying. Sometimes I just can't believe I'm only 41 and I have decades left of my life. I can see the future as being very repetitive.

Perhaps this computer will bring me back to what's more important, and that is enjoying life. Having fun is a major component to enjoying life, so I will try to aim for this.

I am eager to reduce my medication regime, a possibility if my doctor listens, but I am worried that the music might become even more prominent. This would be a great risk. There are some benefits to being on the medication, I am calmer and I don't freak out about people as much. But the physical side effects are debilitating.