Happiness

 I think happiness is peace, and in some instances this is the result of medication. I went through a transition over the past several years, resisting the process of being medicated and thinking medication was bad (I don't know why), to coming to accept that the peace and stability it provides is beneficial.

I have bad headaches now, am obese and impotent (side effects), but I can take each day as a relative blessing and enjoy things a bit better. I will continue to achieve stability and work with my doctor to optimize whatever pills I do have to take.

I am finally at a point where I want to do physical exercise, and get into a fitness or health program where I'm eating good food and moving around. It took a while, but lately I've been getting out every day. Each day seems to provide a new special challenge or event that gets me moving. I get excited for the things I have to do. In sum, this is all possible on medication.

I am rediscovering this, and it's been a long journey. I plan to spend the rest of my life healing. Healing my body, my brain, and my spirit (elusive, I know). Getting past the traumas of childhood and enjoying each day, while taking medication, will provide some semblance of peace and stability, I am hoping.