Zombies

 Playing Call of Duty: Black Ops 6 is a fun pass-time. The rounds go on and on and it really wears on your stamina, but, when you destroy thousands of zombies, there is a certain satisfaction. Your weapon levels up and as you get upgrades throughout the match, you become ever-more powerful. I started playing with a friend of mine who has years of experience.

Health is important, but it is not the most important thing. Happiness is important too. The medication that I'm on (lithium) makes my brain healthy but it leaves a certain void within me. And of course, there are physical side effects to taking medication. Unfortunately I do not have a psychiatrist to help me through the problem of balancing out meds, so I feel I need to take matters into my own hands. But this is a risky game, health-wise. To simply lower my meds on my own is dangerous. I do have the advice of a family doctor though to go on.

I was recently banned from rollercoasterroom which is a peer support chatroom for people with mental illnesses. I feel I did not get a fair trial but it is the nature of that room that people who "offend" get removed almost immediately by the owner. I have found a similar chatroom at healthfulchat.net which could be a good alternative. I am not really into chatting any more after these experiences, but sometimes it is good to have it up in the background.