There are times in life where extroversion is the best way to go. However, if you find yourself, like me, in a situation where you are surrounded by subhuman wastes of flesh, it could be advisable to shift into introversion. Perhaps being an introvert is the best course of action, but as soon as you shift your focus away from people, they can come gnawing at your door.
I generally like to be part of a community where one knows their place in the food chain, and everything balances out. I feel at a loss within this group, because I am truly and genuinely out of place and unhappy. I can't make sense of the minds of the people around me, and this area is known for "crazy people". In my old neighbourhood, there were people with addictions but not as many mentally ill people. I was placed in "mental health" housing and I cannot make sense of the group or community here.
This may be one of those times where introversion makes sense. I am just worried I'll get accosted or stabbed by these knucklehead degenerates. I have witnessed some of the behaviours of the people around me and they are truly nonsensical and overwhelmingly without cause or reason.
Of course, I ended up in this bad situation through bad decisions, if free will is such a thing. If it is not, then I just got extremely unlucky at one or several points throughout my life. Or, perhaps even more accurate, I am just not that smart and could not navigate the tough patches. I can pinpoint one or two points where I got the raw end of the deal, which caused trajectories of negative outcomes.
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